Negative to Positive

It has been a long time since I have been on here. Today I just felt the urge to write something. It's almost as if God wants me to write some words of inspiration to someone. In these past few months I have had a multitude of bad things happen to me. It's been really hard for me to find a way to verbalize what has happened and explain my feelings. Therefore I thought I might utilize a method that will allow me to use the right words.

On September 2nd 2011 I was supposed to spend the day with my Grandpa Reed since my mother and Aunt Martha had gone up to Indianapolis to visit my Aunt Cheryl who was dying from an infection she contracted in the middle of her Cancer. Luckily, I had the opportunity to share a few kind words and laughs with my grandpa over the phone that morning. When I arrived at his house and walked through the back door I found him laying on the kitchen floor. My instinct at the time was not to panic and follow through with the procedure I had learned through my CPR training at work. I dialed 911 and performed CPR since there was no pulse. When the EMTs arrived, he was pronounced dead. My heart was broken terribly and still has been broken ever since. This has been the darkest day of my life so far and I will never forget it and will always have the image in my head of what I saw when I walked through that back door. This man was like a father to me and I will always miss him.

Two days later we received a phone call from a friend of the family who was up in Indianapolis visiting my aunt saying that she had passed away. Even though we were already anticipating for it to happen, we still had a rough time dealing with it because we already lost one family member whom we loved very much. This woman was a great mother, daughter, sister, and aunt. She was always there for her familyI really enjoyed spending time with her. If it had not been for her pushing me to do certain things like joining the church worship team, singing in the choir, or actively participating in other ministries within the church I would not have been where I am today. Hopefully her husband and her sons cared about her ten times as much as I did because she deserved a lot of love and respect. I was really sad that she had to suffer through so much pain for so long, but I am now happy for her because she will no longer suffer through any pain.

I feel like my healing has begun, but I am still in a lot of pain right now. My family has been split up due to disagreements over my grandpa's land causing my mother to break down, I have been in two accidents that happened within eight days of each other, and I am worried about how the holidays are going to go this year. With this weight bearing down on my shoulders I have been overwhelmed with grief. I have really been wanting to talk to my grandpa because he would know what to say in a situation like this, but i can't. It really makes me sad that he is not physically able to be there for my mom or I. I just want this year to be over because I want to forget all these things and move on.

Even though I have been suffering a lot lately there are several positive notes that I can make. First, I know that I am not alone in this. There are many more people out there in this world who have suffered through similar or worse situations than I have. This is my opportunity to present the stories of the situations that I have been through, speak about how God has been with me through it all, and tell the world of His great love for us. If you lost a loved one and feel like this is a punishment, it's not. God has called that person home. Second, If you allow Christ to come into your life and ask Him to forgive you of your sins, He will do wondrous things for you that are beyond your imagination. Your heart will be filled with so much love, compassion, and joy. Finally, he will bring you hope. Meaning that he will always provide for you. Who knows....... You may make it to Heaven and get to see your loved ones again. That's the hope that I have right now.

The other hope that I have is that I have inspired someone and that they will, at least, consider accepting Christ as their Lord and Savior. You will not regret it if you do. I hope everyone has a wonderful week. Please talk to me if you have any questions or comments about this post or if you would like for me to pray for you. I would be more than happy to make myself available for you. Thanks!

Your brother in Christ,

Joey

Here is an inspirational music video that I think goes along with my post:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jLHE4P-B2FA&ob=av2e